I decided to embark on this blogging journey to help me reach my bigger picture. You see, I know what my big picture looks like. I can see it clear as day, waiting ever so patiently for me to get my stuff together. Waiting for me to make the right and necessary steps to reach out and grab it. It’s beautiful yet frustrating.
I realise – deeply – that not everyone has this luxury. So many people can’t see past their own feet - such is the weight of the world on their shoulders. Looking up and around at a world of possibility seems like a simple enough concept, but that’s easy for people to say who aren’t in a headlock. For those who are faced with this right now, I want you to know that I GET IT. I’ve been there, and experienced a devastating loss of vision and hope for my life. For those who know me, being without vision and purpose is at bad as it gets for someone like me. The last 13 years of my life has a lot to answer for, put it that way. Obviously some things have happened lately – life altering, thought shattering, belief challenging things. I’m not going to delve into it just yet, but if you’re wondering what would inspire me to start writing this – well there it is. I have to believe there is purpose behind even these things, and this right here - is my exploration diary.
If there was an overall theme to this very first blog, it would be to tell you that headlocks can be broken, and this blog is my personal reflection of such a process. They say that testimony is the most powerful way to reach people in their darkest place. The reason why testimony has this effect on people is because it's proof that “it” (your impossibility) is possible. You can’t argue with someone’s testimony, even if your heart is determined not to believe it. And if it can happen for someone else, then that’s proof of possibility. Suddenly HOPE quietly knocks on your door again. The question is….will you scrape up enough courage to let it in?
My testimony is a work of art in progress. Its messy, imperfect and it's still happening. This blog is destined to help with that process and maybe your's. Filtering through my thoughts, feelings, conclusions, beliefs and a lifetime of blessings and challenges is part of that process. The old saying “better out than in” has never been as true for me as it is today, not just for myself but for the benefit of others.
It’s not intended to deliberately offend anyone, much less illicit a response from those who will be offended. For those who genuinely connect with these words and want to continue with me on this journey; Welcome. The ride might get a little bit bumpy but I believe it will be worth it. My hope is that along the road you find some answers for yourself. If you want to talk, ask questions or connect further please feel free to email me on firstname.lastname@example.org