Have you ever had a plan that just didn’t go according to plan?
Just when the plan was starting to gain some traction along comes the big fat plan ruin-er.
If I’m honest, this has been the biggest thorn in my side. Really?! Yes really. See our plan was pretty awesome if I do say so myself. And as a woman I pay considerable painstaking attention to every aspect of any plan that involves my families future. Anyone else like that? So I want to share with you my plan for a few reasons that will become a little clearer soon;
2015 was the year that I would take a break from work so I could focus on our baby boy and his special needs. It’s been a hard slog of a journey for 2 years trying to get him in the system, diagnosed, and ultimately supported with ASD. This year he needed to be transitioned into primary school which was no small thing, and something I couldn’t have done if I was working full time.
So he was our first priority, followed by getting my health back in check after 4.5 years of literally working myself to the bone at the local Polytechnic, and getting treated terribly might I add. Bullied and burnt out doesn’t even begin to describe it! Honestly, I’m just so thankful I was given the courage to walk away when I did.
Then there was my academic aspirations. This was my opportunity to finish my MBA and I was determined to be an A average student – not just to prove that I could, but to have on my record that not only did I do it - but I did it well. Nothing wrong with that! I would get a kick ass job, offer added value to my new job by completing my Masters degree whilst working for them, launch our new online business consultation venture, and begin supporting my husband as he finished up at work and became a student again – all in the ultimate quest get a better job in the future. Ahh yes the plan was goooood. And yes – for the record - I did get my A average!!!
November 2015 was always the month I was to start looking for work, with my son settled into his new school and my new qualification tucked under my belt. It was also the month that our budget would finally stop stretching thin on one income (Yes of course that was planned!). I had just finished touching up my CV and making some enquiries into some really cool jobs when cancer literally stopped me and my grand plan in my tracks. Actually, if I’m honest, the cancer didn’t stop me (as if!!) – but my doctor did.
So, no more kick ass job in the foreseeable future, no more Masters degree next year, and sorry my darling husband but you are going to have to stick at that horrible job of yours for a few more years to come. Not to mention, survival on one income doesn’t even look possible at this point which is kind of scary all things considered.
But you know what? I’ve realised something lately. If I can trust God to save my life, then I should be able to trust Him to look after us and our needs. Finances included. Which of the two is the bigger task then? Mmm now there's a reality check for ya.
So it hasn’t worked out the way we hoped and ‘planned’….but really, when does life ever really play the game according to our expectations? It’s either below our expectations, or above – but hardly ever matched. I think that says more about us than anything else. I’d rather have high expectations than low expectations any day. God doesn’t want us to live expecting the worst around every corner. That’s no way to live! Which leads me to my next announcement.
I know its all going to be ok because…wait for it..…I have a plan.
Or should I say, He has a plan, and knowing this gives me confidence to step out in faith, be positive and make a new plan. No I’m not supposed to be working any time soon, but that is not going to stop me working on our online business in the background. Getting it nice and ready for release as soon as I am physically capable to meet foreseeable demand. I am super excited about this business as it has been designed around a true passion of mine – to help people create, build and improve their businesses. Startups have a special little place in my heart, but I have also discovered a passion for taking existing businesses to the next level with special consideration to the future. If there’s one thing this Post Grad Diploma has taught me, its how to see business from a future global perspective.
So keep an eye out for all this in the near future. Sneak peak: The business is called Optimised Business, and I am currently working on the website and the various training and consultation packages. The Instagram page is already up and running if you want to go over and lend your support @optimisedexperts and below is a sample of our branded box sets I have been working on in the last week.
Ok – so I’m telling you all this for a couple of reasons. Mainly to help keep me accountable, because I realise (begrudgingly) that there will be times where I won’t feel like looking forward, let alone moving forward. I’m not stupid, I know I have a hard road to travel but if there’s one thing people have come to know about me – its that I do exactly what I say I’m going to do. Always. It’s part of my character configuration, and also helps me to stay focused when life throws all those lovely curve balls. It’s a great way to keep your feet on the ground and heart full of hope. I’m going to keep creating, keep contributing, and keep being positive about my future and I hope you’ll stick around for the ride.