It's been a while! No neglect intended, in fact quite the opposite. I've been spending my time working on something new that has been on my heart for some time - I just had to make sure my heart was healthy before attempting it. Bitterness can creep and crawl into the darkest crevices of your heart and if you're not careful, can infect even the best of intentions. I'm not saying I'm 100% but when you know your not 100% its even more important to guard that heart of yours...if not for your sake then definitely for others.
Anyway, it's been a journey and every step of the way I have weighed, measured, and submitted myself to the sometimes painful truth - allowing God to do whatever He needed to do in me and through me. Ouch. Finally (and surprisingly) kairos and chronos aligned and the birth of Limitless Global Ministries ensued. Many years ago my husband and I were prophesied over and while I'll give the details a miss, the gist of it was that our ministry was global. Since then many people have confirmed that prophecy in different ways, but admittedly it has been difficult to take a hold of it with both hands and a full/pure heart. Our world as we knew it had just been ripped right out from under our feet. Everything I thought I knew was in question and I had a difficult choice to make. Allow grief to overwhelm me, forcing me to discard everything in a fit of resentment, or make my way through the glorious ruins and commit my hurting heart to peel back every layer of what I had learnt in the last 13 years. Each layer would need to be examined and tested. The hypothesis was simple; Did it stack up against the Word of God or not. Admittedly I'm not even close to the finish line with that (13 years of doctrine is a lot to get through!) but a funny little thing happened as I painstakingly committed myself to this process. The Holy Spirit had His way and because of that the process sped up a little. That's not as spiritual as it sounds...He did it in very practical ways. Brought the right people to us at the right time, opened our ears to encouraging and confirming words that were like healing salve applied directly to our wounds. People who made us realise we weren't as damaged and useless as we thought we were. And then there was our new church. Much can be said about this process, but one of the beautiful things we discovered was that much of what we knew as principal in the Kingdom of God was shared and confirmed over this very different pulpit. Evidence that not everything was false and therefore a waste of our precious earthly time. Mixed feelings about that - but that's another blog.
Essentially I am relieved as it has helped me to see the positive and good in our experience which has been a difficult path to find lately. All part of the grieving process I have been assured. It has also helped restore my faith. My faith in GOD IN ME. Turns out I'm not as crazy as I thought I was!!! Lol As funny as it sounds, it has been the primary belief that has held me back from walking out my purpose. When you think you have lost your connection with God and His truth - or worse - start thinking you never really had it to begin with, strange things happen to your mind, heart, soul, and essentially your spirit. I couldn't bring myself to trust that He was there - inside me anymore. Not just a God I talked about - but a God who lived through me, spoke through me, acted through me. Because isn't that the point? To demonstrate Christ to the world. Christ in YOU hope of glory? To prove that He is alive and AMAZING in and through us despite our obvious flaws. Basic fundamental stuff.
So these were my issues. How can I speak of Him now knowing I was part of something that was so wrong for so long, that as a leader I was jointly responsible for leading others down the same track. Sitting here in my ruins, feeling sorry for myself I guess. But it was more than that. I felt like I had betrayed His trust. Worst.feeling.ever! Thank goodness God doesn't put as much stock into 'feelings' as we do. The truth was/is, that God always knew my heart, and I may not have got it right most of the time but He was always there in me, and with me. Applying that amazing grace and cleaning up after my humanity as I charged forward flying my Kingdom flag high. Speaking through me louder than my own voice, usually through my actions and in later years as a mouthpiece over the pulpit. Many people have said so, even in the midst of their own pain - so I have to believe this to be true. We are not perfect, no human is. But as usual, and for some unfathomable reason - He will use us regardless! Our heart is what truly matters, and if we can align our voices and actions with our heart for Him then heaven and earth will stand to attention. This being the greatest pilgrimage on earth.
So this is where I'm at, and this is where Limitless was born. Sitting in my glorious ruins, unable to ignore the slow burning lamp of a promise made long ago. God met me there, took me by the hand and together we picked our way through the carnage one step at a time. Each step igniting more desire to reclaim my purpose, reminding me that His love and sovereignty is limitless. That I could be all He intended me to be!
Right now this ministry I speak of is a website (www.limitlessglobalministries.com) that will be used as a global platform to launch Word, encouragement, and teachings. This is all done through online written publications and multimedia (audio, video, visual) that can reach anyone and everyone. Eventually I will even launch books from this website - as this is my true passion - but for now it is a collection of inspiration and edification. To celebrate this victory, I have made my first e-book available for free download. It is called Kingdom ABC (Apostolic Biblical Conclusions) and is basically an introduction into the powerful reality of the Kingdom of God, written not only for new believers, but for those who need a gentle and refreshing reminder. When life and our perspective of it gets complicated, God simply wants us to simplify. Sometimes its good to be reminded of simple truths that hold us firm through lifes storms - yes?
If you follow my blogs or are reading this blog by chance, please feel free to check out our new website www.limitlessglobalministries.com and go and grab you a copy of the e-book. Even if your not a christian that book will make sense to you - I promise. And if you have any questions, please just contact me. I'm right here :)
I have and will continue to release short inspirational youtube clips introducing the book if you want to go check it out. The first one is called Introduction to Christianity - Free e-book download (apparently naming it like this makes it easier to find in the youtube search engine lol). I have embedded our first youtube video in this blog so feel free to have a watch and if really want to be awesome you could always go and subscribe to our Youtube channel. I'm trying not to make it sound like a sales pitch (ugh yuck!) but the reality is, if people don't engage with the content then others who may need some encouragement may never come across it. The only way it will reach people is if it goes viral. And this ministry is ALL about reaching and helping people who need it. Won't you come along on this adventure with me - be a part of this journey? I'd love it if you did!!
Thanks for your support so far anyway...journeying with me, allowing me to get all this stuff out of my head, hearing my heart etc. A personal blog is just that I suppose. I will continue to keep it updated as time permits, but if it's not all the time at least you know where I'm at and can come visit me over there ;-)
On to next blog
B x
Anyway, it's been a journey and every step of the way I have weighed, measured, and submitted myself to the sometimes painful truth - allowing God to do whatever He needed to do in me and through me. Ouch. Finally (and surprisingly) kairos and chronos aligned and the birth of Limitless Global Ministries ensued. Many years ago my husband and I were prophesied over and while I'll give the details a miss, the gist of it was that our ministry was global. Since then many people have confirmed that prophecy in different ways, but admittedly it has been difficult to take a hold of it with both hands and a full/pure heart. Our world as we knew it had just been ripped right out from under our feet. Everything I thought I knew was in question and I had a difficult choice to make. Allow grief to overwhelm me, forcing me to discard everything in a fit of resentment, or make my way through the glorious ruins and commit my hurting heart to peel back every layer of what I had learnt in the last 13 years. Each layer would need to be examined and tested. The hypothesis was simple; Did it stack up against the Word of God or not. Admittedly I'm not even close to the finish line with that (13 years of doctrine is a lot to get through!) but a funny little thing happened as I painstakingly committed myself to this process. The Holy Spirit had His way and because of that the process sped up a little. That's not as spiritual as it sounds...He did it in very practical ways. Brought the right people to us at the right time, opened our ears to encouraging and confirming words that were like healing salve applied directly to our wounds. People who made us realise we weren't as damaged and useless as we thought we were. And then there was our new church. Much can be said about this process, but one of the beautiful things we discovered was that much of what we knew as principal in the Kingdom of God was shared and confirmed over this very different pulpit. Evidence that not everything was false and therefore a waste of our precious earthly time. Mixed feelings about that - but that's another blog.
Essentially I am relieved as it has helped me to see the positive and good in our experience which has been a difficult path to find lately. All part of the grieving process I have been assured. It has also helped restore my faith. My faith in GOD IN ME. Turns out I'm not as crazy as I thought I was!!! Lol As funny as it sounds, it has been the primary belief that has held me back from walking out my purpose. When you think you have lost your connection with God and His truth - or worse - start thinking you never really had it to begin with, strange things happen to your mind, heart, soul, and essentially your spirit. I couldn't bring myself to trust that He was there - inside me anymore. Not just a God I talked about - but a God who lived through me, spoke through me, acted through me. Because isn't that the point? To demonstrate Christ to the world. Christ in YOU hope of glory? To prove that He is alive and AMAZING in and through us despite our obvious flaws. Basic fundamental stuff.
So these were my issues. How can I speak of Him now knowing I was part of something that was so wrong for so long, that as a leader I was jointly responsible for leading others down the same track. Sitting here in my ruins, feeling sorry for myself I guess. But it was more than that. I felt like I had betrayed His trust. Worst.feeling.ever! Thank goodness God doesn't put as much stock into 'feelings' as we do. The truth was/is, that God always knew my heart, and I may not have got it right most of the time but He was always there in me, and with me. Applying that amazing grace and cleaning up after my humanity as I charged forward flying my Kingdom flag high. Speaking through me louder than my own voice, usually through my actions and in later years as a mouthpiece over the pulpit. Many people have said so, even in the midst of their own pain - so I have to believe this to be true. We are not perfect, no human is. But as usual, and for some unfathomable reason - He will use us regardless! Our heart is what truly matters, and if we can align our voices and actions with our heart for Him then heaven and earth will stand to attention. This being the greatest pilgrimage on earth.
So this is where I'm at, and this is where Limitless was born. Sitting in my glorious ruins, unable to ignore the slow burning lamp of a promise made long ago. God met me there, took me by the hand and together we picked our way through the carnage one step at a time. Each step igniting more desire to reclaim my purpose, reminding me that His love and sovereignty is limitless. That I could be all He intended me to be!
Right now this ministry I speak of is a website (www.limitlessglobalministries.com) that will be used as a global platform to launch Word, encouragement, and teachings. This is all done through online written publications and multimedia (audio, video, visual) that can reach anyone and everyone. Eventually I will even launch books from this website - as this is my true passion - but for now it is a collection of inspiration and edification. To celebrate this victory, I have made my first e-book available for free download. It is called Kingdom ABC (Apostolic Biblical Conclusions) and is basically an introduction into the powerful reality of the Kingdom of God, written not only for new believers, but for those who need a gentle and refreshing reminder. When life and our perspective of it gets complicated, God simply wants us to simplify. Sometimes its good to be reminded of simple truths that hold us firm through lifes storms - yes?
If you follow my blogs or are reading this blog by chance, please feel free to check out our new website www.limitlessglobalministries.com and go and grab you a copy of the e-book. Even if your not a christian that book will make sense to you - I promise. And if you have any questions, please just contact me. I'm right here :)
I have and will continue to release short inspirational youtube clips introducing the book if you want to go check it out. The first one is called Introduction to Christianity - Free e-book download (apparently naming it like this makes it easier to find in the youtube search engine lol). I have embedded our first youtube video in this blog so feel free to have a watch and if really want to be awesome you could always go and subscribe to our Youtube channel. I'm trying not to make it sound like a sales pitch (ugh yuck!) but the reality is, if people don't engage with the content then others who may need some encouragement may never come across it. The only way it will reach people is if it goes viral. And this ministry is ALL about reaching and helping people who need it. Won't you come along on this adventure with me - be a part of this journey? I'd love it if you did!!
Thanks for your support so far anyway...journeying with me, allowing me to get all this stuff out of my head, hearing my heart etc. A personal blog is just that I suppose. I will continue to keep it updated as time permits, but if it's not all the time at least you know where I'm at and can come visit me over there ;-)
On to next blog
B x