Haven’t blogged for a while. Been too busy trying to keep a lid on my bitterness. Trying to force it through a filter before it hits public eyes and ears. None of us can avoid bitterness altogether - it will come at you one way or another. You have a couple of choices; evict it immediately, entertain it for a moment then show it the door, or let it get all cozy and comfortable in the cushions of your heart. If you have immediate eviction skills I take my hat off to you. But the reality is most people take a moment to look at it, feel it, and reflect on it before finding the strength of character (or not) to evict it. This may take time, (if you’re human) BUT it doesn’t have to take A LOT of time! A wise man once said, “Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” Short answer - no. In fact, it will most certainly assist in shortening your life. Ain’t that a *beep*.
So, I’ve been bitter - but definitely not wallowing in it. More so trying to figure out what the right thing is to do, and getting frustrated and feeling sorry for myself because I’ve realised that the right thing is not always the easiest thing. In fact it’s damn hard! My heart is not to fight or drag anyone through the mud and on a personal note - I’m REALLY sick of being on the battlefield. My family and I have been faithful, loyal, loving, genuine and willing to go the extra mile, especially if its on behalf of truth. To the point where we are, along with one other courageous couple, quite literally the last ones standing (or should I say crawling) through the mess that was left behind. Not only have we inherited the mess, but we’ve also inherited the battlefield. Sound messy? Um yes.
So why don’t we just humbly bow out? Well it’s not as simple as that. If it were a matter of fighting for the truth based on an ethical or moral judgements then maybe we could just mind our own damn business and get on with life. After all - who are we to judge!! But the law is the law and and as much as I don’t want to put another toe on that battlefield - HELL NO am I raising the white flag to the ones who created this mess - and worse, continue to create more at our expense.
Never have I been more aware of this truth: When you have to make decisions like this in life, it is always a good idea to make sure bitterness is not your motivation because nothing good will ever come of it. You may feel good for 30 seconds post victory, but sooner or later the infection will overtake and spread into other areas of your life. It’s like a sugar high - all fun and games in the beginning but when you inevitably come down, you crash - straight to the bottom. Do yourself a favour and show bitterness the door. Then, and only then, make the hard decisions. As for us - yes we will fight - not because we are bitter and want our pound of flesh. But because it is quite simply, the right thing to do.