I can only tell my story and share what worked for me. I can’t promise that what happened for me will happen to you, or to those you love. I know there are some key principles that will line you up for greater possibility. Like love, forgiveness, grace, prayer, faith, hope, identity, obedience, sonship….these are but a few that you will hear me talk about in greater detail in the following posts. Finding this stuff out for yourself and applying it to YOUR life is big enough (Thank God for Grace!). And even then you will always be a work in progress (You are your biggest challenge). Trying to apply it to other people who may or may not be activating these principles is a whole other thing. Continue to hope, believe, pray and have faith that God will hear and respond to your intercession because the truth is, God can pour out His grace on anyone at any moment. It’s His prerogative. But understand that He will do what He wants to do, in His own time and in His own way. x
Breaking the disease of depression over my life wasn’t easy. It took a few goes before I was finally rid of it for good. But God was the man during these times and dished out an amazing amount of grace through this process.
That first breakthrough was just the beginning. There were many more to be had, and I racked them up on my internal scoreboard which sounds silly, but I was a new Christian around this time and there was still a big part of me that needed convincing. It was hard for me to comprehend why a God of so much love and compassion could ever allow such terrible things to happen in my world – not to mention “the world” in general. And so I guess you can say I was a little hesitant to step out and believe in the things I could not see. He ought to prove Himself before I say AMEN to anything thankyou very much! Well I can say now, with the maturity I have gained over the years, that this is a wrong attitude to have. God does not need to prove anything. We are at liberty to test His word, but not stamp our feet and demand proof. It’s only by His grace and love that He even responds to such juvenile demands. He knows how we operate. Mostly by our earthly eyes, I think would be fair comment. But the essence of believing in God and His plans and purposes for our lives, is built on a solid foundation called Faith. Such is the Scripture; “For we walk by faith, not by sight”. 2Cor 5:7
If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains (Math 17:20). Metaphorically mountains represent obstacles, strongholds, impossibility, struggles, and challenges. This is where having the right perspective helps. If you see that mountain as being impossible to move, then it will certainly become a reality in your life. That mountain WILL become immovable, first because you perceive it to be, and second because you lack the faith to do something about it. Faith seasons your belief and gives you the authority to order that mountain to move and get the hell out of your way! But wait....maybe your not supposed to move the mountain. Maybe it has been put there for you to climb it. To ascend to new and higher levels in your life in order to SEE the greater plans and purposes God has for your life. Don't be so quick to order that mountain away...the view is always better from the top anyway! So whether you have to move them or climb them, do not despise the mountains - they are put there to grow and stretch your faith.
Depression is just another Mountain. Begin now with your seed of faith!
"For some people, it’s not just that you can’t get back up out of it, it’s that you can’t see which way is up because everything around you is pitch black. There is no up or down, side ways or other ways about it. You are trapped and lost, gravitating toward some unseen bottomless pit that crushes the very air out of your lungs and squeezes your heart to excruciating levels of physical pain."
"Most people who struggle to understand the “dynamics” behind severe depression that may lead to suicide, simply suffer from a little thing called incomprehension."
"You see, this book is built on life experience and often compares how life was without me knowing Christ, to how life was when I accepted him into my life. But never about how life was without Christ. For even though I was not aware of his presence, and did not know who my Savior was, that did not mean His hand was not over my life. I can testify to the fact that God is involved in all that is Good and oversees all that is not."
"But it is clear as we read back through my diary entry, that even though I wanted so badly to give up, this love I had for God and my obedience toward Him was the greater scale. It was His scale, tailor made for me. Tailor made for anyone who dares to place Him at the center of their heart."
"This would be one of those defining moments in my life where God made Himself and His power known for three simple reasons. Because He loved me. Because He believed in me. Because He knew, looking back from the end of time - that I would rise above the things of this world and take my place."