I’ve always been a deep thinker. I’ve tried apologising for it on numerous occasions but it just doesn’t seem to want to go away. It’s just who I am and I’m done apologising (sorry). The problem with thinking too deeply, is that people tend to switch off and exit my reality half way down the elevator ride. I get it. It’s uncomfortable and sometimes what we uncover is too hard to look at much less think about. It’s much easier to change the channel, retreat into your corner of the universe or pretend it isn’t happening - right? So obviously I’m not talking about my mind anymore, but the parallel is interesting. Humanity is simply more comfortable with it’s head buried deep in the sand. Because isn’t that what we do best in life? Most of us anyway. In fact I was just saying to someone the other day that I don’t watch the news anymore because it’s 'too depressing'. Too much heartbreak, destruction, and straight up evil crap happening everywhere. For me, the pain of watching those things and knowing I can’t do anything about it just shuts me down. Yeah I get it. Doesn't make it right - but I get it.
But 'the head in the sand' theory is just one of many. Another one smells like familiarity. Or what I like to call “The great desensitisation of humanity”! We’ve seen too much, experienced too much, heard too much….that it has all become just a little bit too normal to us. I’ll use myself as an example again… When I hear about someone being sexually abused I don’t even bat an eyelid. Don’t get me wrong…I feel terrible and genuinely sorry for that person, but it no longer has the shock effect that it used to. And no, it’s not because I’ve experienced it myself and don’t see what the big deal is….if anything those who are abused feel it even more. Nope, sexual abuse is just too common in this day and age - disgustingly enough.
Same with cancer. The big C is in our face 24/7! If its not on TV its on facebook, if its not on facebook its on the radio, if someone hasn’t died from it, it’s being promoted through charities. And if none of this registers with you…then maybe you just need to take a look around you. Sadly these days most of us know someone with cancer. We all KNOW about cancer, but its not until someone you love begins to suffer from it, that the realisation hits you hard enough to respond. Or not? My experience has been a mixed bag so far, and not to sound too depressing, but the truth is that some of my closest friends - the ones I would do anything for, and thought would be right there for me during all the highs and lows - have either gone real quiet or gone off the radar altogether. So there goes that theory. Have we really become so desensitised, that even our “loved ones” struggle to connect on that meaningful level? Or has the definition of ‘loved ones’ changed in this increasingly messed up world? It can be a real fight or flight thing. Some people fight (on a whole new level) and some people run back to their safe little comfort zones.
I’m not talking about family, although I guess it can happen in families as well. What I’ve observed and become aware of lately is that the 99 have become too comfortable in their safe little sheep pen. Newsflash! Jesus didn’t stick within the safe comfortable confines of his family. In fact he did the exact opposite every time. He and went OUT to save the ONE that was struggling. He made an effort. He cared. Sometimes its just too easy to be overly concerned with your own backyard.
And we wonder why people are becoming more and more depressed and committing suicide. People do not die from suicide they die from sadness. Many of which genuinely believe that no one cares. When your hunched down in the darkest corner of your universe you can’t help but wonder - where is everybody? Where are my so called friends and loved ones? We’ve all got our stuff to work on, but surely our hearts are big enough to care for more than our immediate circle. And I know its possible because I’ve experienced this side of it to. Lately I've had so many wonderful, caring, beautiful new (and even old) friends that have gone the extra mile for me and my family, and have genuinely demonstrated their love and concern throughout one of the most difficult challenges in my life. Priceless. My deep thinking thanks God for that!!!
Life IS what you make of it, so make an effort to make it a loving, positive, caring, sensitive, compassionate, understanding life. Give all that other stuff the heave hoe, and do life on your terms…and according to the original plan of the Master Creator. It’s got to be better than this. It’s just got to. Maybe if we can learn how to take care of those we care about better, we can then be free and able to take on the rest of the world! One reformed step at a time.
Thanks for reading my deep and random thoughts. PS I get my results tomorrow. Let's see if this C bugger has spread! Bex xx