Why?

If you've been reading my other posts, by now you would have realised that I'm a big believer in you reap what you sow....Or in other words, every bad decision/choice has a consequence attached. We can't go through life throwing out the "Why me" card every time something unpleasant happens to us. God will forgive your sins if you repent, BUT that doesn't automatically remove the consequence of your original choice. 

At times God allows trials to come our way simply to teach us a lesson. That sounds ominous, but really, isn't life all about learning? If you hadn't already noticed, God doesn't just sit you down in a classroom and rattle off theory until your ears turn blue. He is the creator of the universe and undoubtedly knows that our attention spans wouldn’t stretch past 30 minutes of lectures on each and every subject to do with life. More often than not he will throw a scenario at you and teach you through trial and error on how to best learn from that particular experience. To grow up. To be better. The bare bones truth is......When trouble comes we tend to lean harder on our Daddy God, realising that we just can’t “do life without Him” and recognising His sovereignty in our lives. God isn’t above reminding us of these things.

BUT!!..... I hear you screeching......how is that applicable to a child being sexually abused? Did the child have a choice? Did the child do something to provoke consequence? Did the child even have a chance to turn from this experience and learn from her mistakes? The answer of course is NO.

This is a subject that many have struggled to comprehend. The big WHY question remains unanswered for millions of people. There is not a lot that a child can learn while they are going through such a traumatic experience. During these difficult years, I couldn't remember learning anything remotely positive about the actual experience of being sexually, mentally and emotionally abused. If I learnt anything it was how to pretend to sleep, how to sneak around so he couldn't hear me, how to keep my mouth shut, and inevitably how to hate (myself and him). The upside to all of that is I did learn how  to survive....Survive long enough to reach adulthood - where the real learning began.

I don't have all the answers. But the answers I do possess have worked for me. My journey, and who I am today is testimony of that.

I will revisit this subject soon. Its a biggie...